17 Jul 2023

Missy
Nicks

New Moon

Aug 1st

Jul 3rd

after reading
𝑆𝑖𝑑𝑑ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑎
by Hermann Hesse

‘I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment, and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace.’

Hermann Hesse, Siddhartha

i am the son of the boy

i am the boy

Vasudeva looked into my heart and told me of myself

i am of the eternal life

and like the boy

my heart is proud and hard

people like us

need to err

suffer much

burden ourselves with sin

and like the boy’s father

i too am waiting for my wound to blossom and shine

Behind the poem...

I found the book Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse (originally published in 1922) a few months after coming out of a severe depression and leaving an abusive relationship. It was a journey of healing; being reborn again and again, and understanding that I was meant to go through the darkness in order share this light. Hesse’s book lit something in my soul. I hope my poem lights something within others.